I have a ton of anxiety and thoughts running my mind. So I'm hoping that getting it out of my mind and onto “paper” is going to get rid of some of it!
It’s nice to have anxiety, it allows us to feel emotions, however, it’s still anxiety. I’m worried for Nikolas and school and how he is going to adjust from a class of 12 students and two teachers to a class of 29 students and one teacher. I worry he won’t make friends, even though the preschool teachers told me over and over he was the most liked kid in the class. I’m worried that I‘ll forget to make a lunch and he will starve! I worry he will struggle in school or even be bored. I worry about him being exposed to older kids and what they may teach him. Things I have chosen to shelter him from.
Carter, I worry that my baby is growing up and I no longer have the desire to have another baby. I worry that because I still have guilt of PPD, that I baby him and I’m creating a monster, which I know I am. I worry that he’ll be expelled from preschool, because he is aggressive!!! I worry he will have my fears and anxiety.
Frank, I worry that he hates his job and he is doing it for us, and I worry it will lead to resentment, and hate. I worry that my lack of self confidence will lead to him also doubting me. I worry that my tiredness and lack of sex drive will lead to him searching for the lust he desires. I worry that our marriage will turn more into a bonded friendship vs. a husband and wife relationship.
Myself, I worry, I’ll die young and not meet my grandchild, or worse die alone. I worry that the choices I make as a parent will affect my children in a negative way! I worry, that my cake business will fail, I worry that I’ll be more over weight and the world will turn on me. I worry that my friends will not understand my opinions and know I always try to have a open mind. I worry that I won’t sleep and it will lead to further depression.
I worry, and I’m tired of worry!!! I need to remove it from my life and enjoy today!! But I worry about change! Pray for me and my worry!
