Sunday, December 25, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year….

Thanksgiving was normal, at my in-laws. Frank was sick so no Black Friday shopping. December flew by and I was so busy in the kitchen my friends started to wonder if I was angry with them and why I was avoiding them. Which I wasn’t, just too busy to  Eat, Shit, Play Winking smile .

 

Christmas was again normal…. Kids are spoiled…. Carter got a drum set and Nikolas got a fancy new neon green bike.   I was spoiled too, Frank was spoiled! BLAH BLAH BLAH….

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I spoke to the sperm donor… not even worth typing…. If you want to know ask. I really am over it!

 

New Years was fun, and lame!  Frank and I spent the evening with cocktails, a cooler couch and  xbox. It actually was a fun date night in!

 

Here is a picture of the cooler cough which is by far the BEST gift ever…. You see everyone thinks I’m this high maintenance dEEva, but really at heart I’m a hillbilly. I dream of living on a farm with horses, chickens, cows and about 5 dogs. A fireplace and a few acres of land, not really in the middle of now where. I do need my wal-mart, but a big old farm house would suite me just fine!

 

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Sunday, November 27, 2011

Pneumonia

“Pneumonia

Pneumonia is a breathing (respiratory) condition in which there is an infection of the lung.

 

Causes, incidence, and risk factors

Pneumonia is a common illness that affects millions of people each year in the United States. Germs called bacteria, viruses, and fungi may cause pneumonia.

Ways you can get pneumonia include:

  • Bacteria and viruses living in your nose, sinuses, or mouth may spread to your lungs.

  • You may breathe some of these germs directly into your lungs.

  • You breathe in (inhale) food, liquids, vomit, or fluids from the mouth into your lungs (aspiration pneumonia)

Pneumonia caused by bacteria tends to be the most serious kind. In adults, bacteria are the most common cause of pneumonia.

  • The most common pneumonia-causing germ in adults is Streptococcus pneumoniae (pneumococcus).

  • Atypical pneumonia, often called walking pneumonia, is caused by bacteria such as Legionella pneumophila, Mycoplasma pneumoniae, and Chlamydophila pneumoniae.

  • Pneumocystis jiroveci pneumonia is sometimes seen in people whose immune system is not working well.

Many other bacteria can also cause pneumonia.

Viruses are also a common cause of pneumonia, especially in infants and young children”

 

What the above doesn’t tell you is that as a mother it can be one of the most scariest things, when you send your child to bed and he seems fine, only to have come into your room at 11pm with a bluish/gray tint to his face and lips!  What if he wouldn’t have gotten up, and stayed in his room, by the time I checked on him would he have been ok. This I can’t think about.

Your first thought goes to:  “did he swallow something” you check him over and see he can talk but is gasping for air. Your next thought goes to “911” or “ER”  my fear was he would not end up with our (saying it with my nose in the air) Beaumont Drs. So to the ER we went.

I knew he had pneumonia, as he was at urgent care that afternoon but we were told, mild case. “walking pneumonia” , I remember now, as we drove the 15 mins. to Troy Beaumont, asking Frank 1000 questions about the symptoms he had, Frank had pneumonia the week before so I honestly wasn’t worried. Frank was sick, very sick but he never had blue lips or issues with breathing, his issue was a dry cough that cause him great pain.

 

As we arrived to ER, Carter’s pulse-ox level was at 88%, which if you didn’t know is NOT GOOD! It should be above 95. So oxygen he was given.

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My poor monkey! Sad smile 

He was admitted to the Hospital and I had to put all my anxieties aside and focus strictly on my son. I was a ball of mess. He was crying and begging for me to take him home and I was crying and begging Frank to take us both home. You see, Carter and I are “home sick” people. We like going out and having adventures but we also love being home and cozy in our bed at night! So for both of us to be left alone in a strange place with strange sounds and strange people, was something we both had anxiety over.

His temp, was high 102 + for the evening and night, he was not treated for the temp and anytime he tried to eat or drink, he would vomit.  Sometime in the afternoon on Monday the DR came in and said, he has until this evening to break his temp and raise his oxygen or we will transport him to Royal Oak Beaumont. I was a MESS, my poor friend Nicol, caught me on the phone right after I heard this news and I cried like a baby, a true baby!  I prayed more then I have prayed in sometime, I called on ALL my angels, his angels, the archangels and any angels anyone above could spare. (I’m crying right now as I type this) to heal my little babies lungs.

As usual  GOD prevailed and by 9pm that evening his fever broke and with it came higher oxygen levels. PRAISE HIM!!!

 

This picture was taken around 1am. As you can see he figured out there was a tv and he could control it. The dixie cup is what they used for oxygen, he kept removing the tubes from his nose, so they poked a hole in the cup for him to hold near his face, and while he slept it was kept close to his face.

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Finally after pooping 100 times, they allowed me to give give a bath, which he loved!! They also allowed him to eat, he kept it down and we were finally sent home after two or three (can’t remember) nights.

AS you can see, he was ready!!!!

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PRAISE GOD, THANK you to my family, friends and all the angels. I owe you all!

 

One last shot, this was him at home, with the nebulizer, which he became a little pro at.

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Thursday, November 17, 2011

The Giving Tree

Today I was room mom in Nikolas’s class. As I entered the office, I noticed a beautiful Christmas tree with tons of little paper ornaments on it. I approached the tree and noticed it was all gift request.  I immediately was excited, my chance to purchase a girly gift.  Only as soon as I was excited, I was heartbroken. As I read the little paper ornaments I was brought back to reality, the request were simple and small. Items we take for granted. Socks, Shoes, Hats, Gloves, Coats.  This breaks my heart into a million pieces. I don’t want to sound snobbish or spoiled  but I have never had a need and heck, I really have never had a want. I mean yes we all want more. A bigger house, a better car but these are things I know will come to me. The thought of having no hope or no relief in sight brings much anxiety to my mind.  It also questions why life isn’t fair especially to children. How in the world in 2011, in America, can a child need socks or shoes for the cold. What kind of life is this for a child?  How can they have dreams and hopes when they don’t even have shoes for their feet.  It burdens me and humbles me, my hope is that my children will also be humble!  I try to ENFOCE this. Halloween was a great time for them. But I did REQUIRE them to give half of their candy away.  And I WILL require them to shop with me and help wrap the simple items I removed from the Giving Tree.

 

May God Bless you always and my you always have fortune and faith!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Halloween!

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Jack Sparrow and Superman

 

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Laughing at Carter

Yesterday the boys we playing school. Nikolas was the teacher, and it was fun centers. Fun Center is when the kids are grouped and each center is a different project or task.

Carter’s fun center was shorting the matchbox cars. So Nikolas said, “OK class, if your name starts with a “C” , you can start your fun center”. Carter pauses for a moment than says “Well since I’m the only one here, I ‘ll start”

 

CLASSIC CARTER! Always making us laugh!

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Digital Scrap…

I have had this new software for some time now and with Christmas creeping up on us, I have decided to get moving on photobooks.

 

Here is a sneak peak of a page. This was from our Crystal Mtn. trip in August.

 

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Friday, October 28, 2011

Carter starts School

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He was very excited! Winking smile 

 

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Still thrilled….

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Clearly not happy!

 

Poor Carter was a mess. He cried and and just was not his normal out going self. We talked about school all weekend and he was super excited and told everyone who asked about how fun school was. Clearly his definition of fun and mine are different.

 

Day two…. Mind you class is only 1 hour and 45 mins long. For 1 hour and 15 mins he sat like this refusing to speak or take part in class.

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(Sorry picture is not the best it was taken from behind double mirror. The class has a observation room for parents. )

I did peak my head into the room and he started to cry and told me he peed. Poor kid was so nervous to ask, that he peed in his pants. Sad smile  So teacher invited me into class, I changed him, gave him a high five, a kiss and left, letting him know I would be in hallway!

 

Day Three…..

We are making little progress. No TEARS and even though he refused to talk, dance, sing. He did stand when asked and brightened up when mommy was in room for Halloween Party.

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I’ll keep you all updated on his progress! In the mean time say a little prayer for my little monkey!

Meet Karma Apple

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Karma Apple our newest little bundle of love. As you know I had horrible PPD after Carter and the fear of it retuning is constant in my mind. If money was no object I would 100% consider a surrogate and maybe even adoption. So instead I have puppies to help fill the void. It seems there is a baby boom right now and after a few days of sleepless  nights from baby Karma…. I am THANKFUL, I’m not part of the baby boom.

 

Karma is another rescue, she came from a foster home and had 7 siblings. She is adjusting very well and loves her brother Remi and sister Mitzi. Right now she does love the human brothers but has pretty much sticks with Remi and her new mama! She is doing really well with potty training, very few accidents in house. She is NOT a fan of her crate but we are taking baby steps towards her loving it as much as Remi loves his. I am confident that once she is comfortable with crate potting training will be complete. 

 

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A little play time with Remi.

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Sleepy time with Mitzi.

 

I thought I had video of the boys meeting her but of course camera wasn’t recording! Sad smile However they are thrilled! Carter more than Nikolas!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Savin dollars and sense…

Remember way back, I said I wanted to start a stock pile…. Well…..

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Mission Complete!! In fact, last month we lived off the stock pile and I only purchased fresh items, milk, eggs, fruit and veggies and NOTHING ELSE.

I had these items all over the house, so todays project was these shelves in the laundry room. ( I installed all by myself) Toilet paper and paper towel still remain in garage but I have more space and a entire empty shelf to keep adding to!!!

 

I LOVE saving money!!!

Happy Birthday 6th Nikolas!!

Sept 23rd, 2005 will forever be one of the greatest days of my life!

Happy Birthday to our first born!!!

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We had a family dinner at Mama Vicki’s , Tootsee the Clown sure made the day so special!

I’ll update with Party pictures after the party on Oct 8th.

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Our family!!! XOXO

Nikolas and his best friend Cameron

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The cake!!!

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Sunday, September 4, 2011

ANXIETY, my dear old friend!

I have a ton of  anxiety and thoughts running my mind. So I'm hoping that getting it out of my mind and onto “paper” is going to get rid of some of it!

 

It’s nice to have anxiety, it allows us to feel emotions, however, it’s still anxiety. I’m worried for Nikolas and school and how he is going to adjust from a class of 12 students and two teachers to a class of 29 students and one teacher. I worry he won’t make friends, even though the preschool teachers told me over and over he was the most liked kid in the class. I’m worried that I‘ll forget to make a lunch and he will starve! I worry he will struggle in school or even be bored. I worry about him being exposed to older kids and what they may teach him. Things I have chosen to shelter him from.

 

Carter, I worry that my baby is growing up and I no longer have the desire to have another baby. I worry that because I still have guilt of PPD, that I baby him and I’m creating a monster, which I know I am. I worry that he’ll be expelled from preschool, because he is aggressive!!! I worry he will have my fears and anxiety.

 

Frank, I worry that he hates his job and he is doing it for us, and I worry it will lead to resentment, and hate. I worry that my lack of self confidence will lead to him also doubting me.  I worry that my tiredness and lack of sex drive will lead to him searching for the lust he desires. I worry that our marriage will turn more into a bonded friendship vs. a husband and wife relationship.

 

Myself, I worry, I’ll die young and not meet my grandchild, or worse die alone. I worry that the choices I make as a parent will  affect my children in a negative way! I worry, that my cake business will fail, I worry that I’ll be more over weight and the world will turn on me. I worry that my friends will not understand my opinions and know I always try to have a open mind. I worry that I won’t sleep and it will lead to further depression.

 

I worry, and I’m tired of worry!!! I need to remove it from my life and enjoy today!! But I worry about change! Pray for me and my worry! Smile

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Exercation

I have no idea if exercation is a word but I am creating it.! If we can have vacation and stay-cation, I can HAVE exercation.

Definition- a vacation or holiday in which you do exercise more than relaxing. This is intended for those who are in shape, non smokers and non drinkers. Preferably this adventure is for someone who exercises at home. Warning you will lose weight on a exercation.


PS: We are having a wonderful time on our exercation and the boys are enjoying all the running, climbing and playing. But mama, wants a Miller Lite, a Marlboro Light without stares and a relaxing pool side day. Wish me LUCK!




The Climb @ Sleeping Bear Dunes




A view from 1/2 way up the Dunes.






Monday, August 15, 2011

all in a week....

In one week, I was told... I'm racist, called a troll, asked if I was "what 39" (AS IN YEARS OLD) called whore with 3 kids with 4 dads and asked if I was "what about 25-26 years old"

If I wrote a nonfiction book on my life people would think it's fiction!

BTW- the "whore story" was a joke, as I was telling a stranger I had 2 exhusbands and on my third marriage.!!! My "ex" said this. I about pee'd my pants!


Monday, July 11, 2011

This is MY life…

Ok so I stole the title from a friends blog, but still this is MY life and I wouldn’t change a DAMN thing!

Monday, July 4, 2011

Frankenmuth or Bust

My in-laws are known day travelers. They enjoy day days trips and visit local places in Michigan and Canada. So we decided to join them on a Frankenmuth day trip. The weather was perfect, so was the food and company.

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Mia famila

We also took a trip on the Bavarian Belle. It’s a very smooth ride, no wake and you’re free to move around the boat. They kids enjoyed it!  

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4th of July!

We had a mini party at our house to celebrate our nations greatest day.

 

 

 

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Happy 4th of July from a very proud American Family!

O Canada

My husbands Father is Canadian and so is the entire family. So we celebrate Canada day in a American way.

While we visited Niagara Falls, I bought us all new Canada Shirts to support our Canadian Pride .

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Frank’s was a giant leaf shirt, similar to the Canadian Flag.

Happy Canada Day!

Just the two of us!

Frank had to visit Lockport, NY and Niagara Falls, Canada for work and because we were married in Niagara Falls, Ca, I jumped at the chance to visit the locations with him. 

We enjoyed some MUCH needed alone time. We spent one night in Lockport and one night in Niagara. Frank worked most of the day Tuesday and so I was solo. Which if you know me isn’t a easy task. I had breakfast alone in the hotel restaurant. AWKARD, with families all around me. I read, slept and just enjoyed some me time.

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We drove through this neat tunnel, it was very European looking.

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From there we traveled to Niagara Falls, ONT. Canada

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Clifton Hill

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The American Falls

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The Oaks Garden Theatre (this is the isle I walked down on my wedding day)

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The ring Frank bought me. It’s garnet, citrine, and peridot.

It was a great time and so relaxing.

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It was my annual Girls Only Weekend. My Dad tags along too. He is our body guard, boat driver and laughs!

Nicol, Angie, Lisa, my mom and myself attended this year. Of course we had plenty of laughs and a nice enjoyable weekend at my parents cabin!

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Lisa and ME! aka… the smokers

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Island Lake

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Nicol and Angie aka… the texters

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All of us. My Mom (lori), Angie, Lisa, Nicol and Me.

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Ma Deeters Bar

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